Commendable

They don’t know how to treat us at this hospital. They may not know how to treat us anywhere. I told the doctor that it was commendable how he kept trying to treat me, but one day, he’d have to give up. He agreed.

He said he’s had meetings over how to best treat me. He talked to the medical director of the hospital, and the medical director talked to me, and even he didn’t know what to do. No one knows how to help me get better. I feel like a fucking lost cause, a burden. God, I wish I’d just managed to kill myself.

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